My Epiphany

Hi All, hope you've been having a fabulous couple of weeks.
I wanted to tell you about my latest epiphany and hope it may help you in tougher times.

Do you ever feel so completely consumed by events, life dramas that you begin to wonder how you'll move past them, almost like a thick fog on the freeway?
You try and tell yourself that "this too will pass" but it just doesn't seem to resonate or change the way you actually feel. You know logically that it's true but you don't feel it in your bones.

Well, I was having one of those weeks, but I did manage to find the solution, although before I tell you my remedy I'll explain the events that brought me here.

For any parents out there, I'm sure we all know the self questioning "Am I a good parent?", "will my children blame me or hate me for some of the decisions I've made?" etc etc. Well, that can only be amplified when parents are separated and accusations are hurled.
So safe to say, I've had my fair share of that over the last couple of weeks. Blah!!
This was then backed up by confusion/uncertainty around a romantic situation - and we'll leave it at that.
Then over the coming week I have the finalisation of the Divorce (Yippee, woohoo, yeah!!), the interstate move of the childrens father and the repercussions this poses for the children, hitting the 9 year mark at work and finally a court/tribunal appearance dredging everything up again, although it's all for a good outcome.
Yep - I think you're probably starting to see my life is never a boring one.

Anyway, you can imagine how i may have ended up on the kitchen floor in tears, on my knees,.... but lucky for me (and everyone around me) I don't stay down long.
And I have to say, I do believe that this can serve a great purpose. If we listen, it allows us a chance to really look at what's going on, acknowledge the 'stuff', release it and move on.

Now - the good bit - my Remedy!!
NATURE!!
A long walk amongst the trees, the lorikeets, the cockatoos and the rosellas. Stopping and sitting by the river, just watching the water flow past and the birds getting on with their day, flitting from one tree to the next.
Which got me thinking. They don't sit around, analysing, worrying, projecting. No, they live completely in the moment. There's no yesterday, no tomorrow, only this very moment. You can really see that when you watch them.
Ahhh! That's it! That's my epiphany.
Now! Right now! I can control that, I can do that, gosh, life seems so much easier already.
Of course I've heard this concept many times, but to really feel it, to know it, that's something different.

I also know it's not neccessarily easy to hold onto that moment and so i have a back up plan for when the mind starts to wonder. The first is of course meditation, and boy did I need this weeks one.
The second came to me the following day as I was driving into the office.
Bliss n Eso - REALLY LOUD!!!!!
I find Addicted and Down by the River seem to work the best for me : )
Here's to now! Right now!!!

xx